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Monday, September 04, 2006

oh, my little blog..I have not forgotten thee! lol..I've really been just updating my myspace blog, but I need to update this one now.

I'm loving my life right now. Almost everything is perfect. My suitemates are really cool, & I've met so many awesome music kids from theory & choir already..it's just great. Everyone is so much nicer than I expected, and I'm very glad that I decided to do music, because it's making me so much happier than I was last year.

um..the almost perfect thing refers to Ray. I have no idea if anything is going to happen with him. He came over to my dorm the 2nd day of classes, we drank way too much wine & things got a little out of hand, but it was still an amazing night. Since then, I've talked to him twice. When he was at my dorm, I asked him what he saw me as & his answer just confused me. I want to ask him again, but I dunno. He's back in Boston now, & he's supposed to call me sometime soon. I hope he does. And not just because I'd like to be in a relationship with him, but more because we have so much in common, & I had so much fun with I was out with him. It's been a while since I've had that much fun with a guy, & I don't want to lose that. & it's weird, because some of the things he said to me makes me think that he wanted/wants a relationship. but then other times, I'm doubtful because we don't talk very often at all. & I am in his top friends on myspace, so I guess that means he's not going to completely forget about me yet...& it's also weird, because I'm not as depressed about this situation as I thought I would be. I mean, I do get a little sad sometimes at the thought that even if we do continue to talk, it'll probably be Christmas before I'll see him again...but then I remember that he's supposed to be moving back down here next summer...*sigh* I really don't knwo what's going to happen, but I know I'll be fine either way it goes.

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